About 3 weeks ago, Asher fell from the sliding frame in the school's playground and fractured his upper arm near the elbow. That was the beginning of a nightmare for us as parents as the normal routine around the house now seemed to focus on the arm in the sling and the boy wearing it. Greater than this is the anxiety that continually plagues us when Asher plays, jumps, runs and climbs as if his arm is healthy as normal...until he falls now and then on his plastered arm and our hearts jump out of our ribcage. All our warnings and threats seem to turn into deaf ears and our best intentions are ignored. When I think I cannot handle this mental torture anymore, I think about God and affirm myself of His grace. Call it helplessness, butI certainly must admit that short of tying Asher down to a chair, I know I can not do anything to prevent what may happen if it should happen. But I know God and trusted in His grace. Compared to my initial reaction to this episode of Asher's fractured elbow, I no longer pray for instant healing and doubt if my faith is enough for it to take place, I thank God for the healing taking place slowly but surely in Asher's arm; I no longer worry myself to destruction with things I canot control but I trusted God that His grace will lead us through even if He allows the worst to happen to Asher. To be able to trust God's grace brings much rest in my heart. I feel that I need not fight for what I want to see in the outcome but simply allow God to do what I cannot control. I think it takes more faith to trust God unconditionally, regardless of the outcome of circumstances than to trust in His instant healing.
Asher's fractured arm has allowed me to experience again God's grace enveloped in His love and taken me on through another journey of learning about the way God works and my faith in Him.
When Asher broke his arm, the first doctor we consulted suggested an operation with pins inserted to stabilised the fracture; the second doctor suggested a plaster and allow healing to take place. We opted for the latter and thank God that the fracture is healing well despite a minimal displacement which will be corrected by itself with time.
I am glad he is mending.
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